During my Applied Psychology studies, I thought of a shortcut to success. Instead of working as a bartender, I worked as a habit tracker* of CEO’s from top firms and athletes for 2 years.
But that wasn’t enough, so I did my thesis on ‘How educated women of color can reach top positions with psychology strategies’. Where I interviewed 40 board members, lawyers, doctors, managers, and entrepreneurs. Shockingly, 92% of these women thought they weren’t good enough. They believed their flaws and failures were due to them, but they couldn’t internalize their achievements.
I couldn’t believe my ears, these women were in positions I could only dream of and they couldn’t see how phenomenal they were. That’s when I learned about the Imposter Phenomenon.
It was an eyeopener, that what they experienced was precisely how I felt for the last 11 years. Fed up with feeling like a disappointment, dimming myself, and feeling paralyzed by my perfectionist tendencies…
I decided there and then that I wasn’t going to have a future like these women. It was time to get more energy out of my life, achieve my goals, AND celebrate myself.
* A human habit tracker is someone who analyzes habits and gives insights on them. I used to call 5 days a week. For 520 days I was casually talking to highly successful people and getting a personal look into their lives.